Grad Party

My mom tried to throw me a surprise grad party last night, but she accidentally told me about it Thursday night (she said, "I've just been so stressed; your dad's new job, me losing my job, your sisters's musical rehearsals, your party tomorrow night, graduation on Monday..."). I hadn't known about my party before that. She started freaking out and listing what was stressing her during intermission at the Bob Carr when we saw Camelot. My sister called mom my mom cus she needed ride about 10 minutes int the second act and so my mom left to get her. I'm sure it looked very funny to the people sitting next to my mom and I: a mother flipping out on her irritated teenge daughter, then leaving the theatre 10 minutes later and not returning at all. It looked as if I'd been abandoned over some silly argument.

Anywho, my party was really fun. About 20 people came. There was Vince (kind of a party kid), Allison and Cayla (good friends from Middle School), about 10 people from church, Alec and John from school, Steve (band kid from brantley, very... worldly?), Paul and Sarah (twins from Lyman) and few other people like Matt, Kristin, Chris, and Chris (college kids, but awesome nonetheless).

Most of the time we sat out on Taryn's dock, talked, and fought over the hammock -I have a bruise on my elbow from falling out of it. Afterwards, I took Vince home (he's such a sweetie and really does try to live above what circumstances life has handed him) and then went over to Steve's to make cookies but instead, we ended up just talking about our favorite parts of highschool and walking his dog around his neighborhood at one in the morning, haha. Steve thought it was crazy that I made it through high school never having been kissed -apparently, that's not normal according to Steve. But kissing just seems to open the door way too easily to places where I just do not want to go, and so it makes perfect sense to me to not kiss guys at this stage in my life.

Tonight I am going to my little sisters' show. She's in Seussical and is a bird girl - I am so proud of her, I love her. I think she is the one thing that makes me hesitate about going to college early; I don't want to leave her alone, I am scared she will get into trouble or start dating the wrong kind of boys. Though, if she has the same kind of luck I do with guys, she won't be dating any of them for a loooong time (made it through highschool without ever having a boyfriend or a date.